six.

not everyday can be a fairytale. -london. well he has a point. mine was one. it was just a bit slow. the bike ride to work was nice, i was motivated by the beatles and leather leggings. its a lot chiller out than i had expected, i guess its because i didn't see a window anywhere, so i couldn't judge. or assume. the ride is becoming a very receptive route, giving me time to think. and try and be as discreet and quiet as possible. its funny because dori said that i was "under" the radar. cute, and kinda true. i was thankful to get to know her today. i like her, i think we would have ridiculous times together, i'll test those waters later. but i love those girls now. like really like them, i want to be friends for while. its nice to have that companionship, and to know why….

perhaps i said too much? i need a few to care. or even know. I'm glad i wrote myself a note years ago. 2010. the simpler life of the beach and summer boys. it said i was ready for love. i listed him has just "him". it was alex at the time, but "he" fits a lot of molds. i just need a muse right? he can't be a dead person, or someone who is crazy. it has to be the most civil human on earth. he died, but continued to live. that is the symbolism. those who are good continue on. as souls. he said that i was from  Egyptian worlds only a few lives back. i can feel her still. its just so wild, i know now that i am at the bottom and thank God this is the bottom because it is still heaven on earth . thank you LORD. 

i think i loved him in another life. we are in love. its just as simple as that. honestly i did my research and found him on the internet. i remember the moment. 

i guess I'm in love with the soul that is all those people. i know my music. i know how to change moods with it. i just absolutely love every second of my time listening to it. that has been forever in my life. 

here's the challenge for my days ahead. BE SOCIAL> this is very important because that more people you know the more you learn the faster you get to your goal. being too comfortable is sometimes my downfall. i like to be trapped in a quiet place with myself. and it can work for days and days, when really i could be at another point had i just said hello. so thats why i'm still wandering around. but i can relax for a minute because i am here and i have a place to live and work. a best friend a half a mile away who i am absolutely in love with… and a house full of amazing people that i am beginning to love as well. honestly its wild that it takes a balance of things, people, experience to let you know that you are in the right place. i need the entire equation to be here. thank you lord. i want to heal people of their self conscious doubts about themselves. so i guess today actually revealed a lot. i am thankful. 

witchy woman-the eagles. stevie nicks crosses my mind. what's her deal?